The Sober Life is Hard Work
Living a sober life in an alcohol world is hard work.
But the harder I work at recovery, the harder it is for me to surrender to the alcohol trap.
Early in my recovery, I thought it was all alcohol’s fault. Creating a deep understanding of what alcohol does to my body. Empowering myself with the knowledge and the risks of drinking alcohol. I lost my mother to breast cancer. I’m at a greater risk of breast cancer, alcohol multiplies that risk.
I knew that I didn’t like what alcohol brought to my life. I knew it was holding me back. It was reckless for my health. But, I kept surrendering to alcohol.
Alcohol is a good time. It’s a stress reliever. It helps me relax. Release. Let go.
Then, I realized that I depended on alcohol. It was hard. I used alcohol to numb my anxiety, stress, and fear. I realized that it’s alcohol’s fault that I use alcohol in that way, but that it is my fault for surrendering to it. That I chose to hide instead of facing my feelings. It’s a trap.
It’s hard to climb out. There are cravings, habits, and beliefs. It's hard work.
But the harder you work, the harder it is to surrender.
It’s not about willpower. It’s about victories.
Any sober life victories for you today?
What did you use alcohol to hide from?