Self Talk: Alcohol in my life vs. Alcohol-free life
On day 3 of my August Whole30, I was tired. So very tired and achy. My knees ached, my feet ached. I posted on my Instagram about how during each Whole30 I’m always googling the Whole30 Timeline to check in with how I’m feeling. Sure enough Day 2-3 are the hangover days. I was right on track.
I got home from work on Day 3 and had low expectations for myself. In the morning I had ambitions to start tackling one of my August Goals , but when I got home I knew I’d be lucky if I got the dishes done (which I did - woohoo). As I crawled into bed, before my kids I said to myself be kind to yourself, be gentle. You are transforming right now; you need your rest. Take care of yourself.
The next day as I was driving into work I felt at peace, and I realized how different my self-talk is now vs. when I depended on alcohol. When I had alcohol as a part of my everyday life, and I felt like I did on day 3, I would have spent the day at work in misery. Suffering through - counting the minutes to 5 o’clock. Disengaged, distracted and unproductive. Not a good look for a leader with a large team looking up to her. My mind accepting the inadequacy of myself, my willpower, my life. My dreams are too big for my abilities.
When I would get home from work, my family got a grouch. A fend for yourself for dinner and a stay out of my room I don’t feel good Mom. My self-talk was all about blame. You did this to yourself. If you would just cut out the wine, you would be the best mother/wife/boss/person, but you can’t. This is your life get used to it. Lazy. This is what alcohol brings to your life.
I’m so thankful to have realized the truth about alcohol the entire truth. The health and mental effects alcohol bring to your life. Today, I’m kind and gracious to myself. Loving me and oh so proud of me.
How has your self-talk changed today vs. with alcohol in your life?
Have you had any sober life victories lately?